At the moment I have two friends of mine who proclaimed to me that they have feelings for me. I don’t like them back, instead I have feelings for my ex, and my best friend. I am officially doomed to Love everyone who will never love me back, and be loved by those I will never love back. At least I’ll learn a lesson.

I’ve been friends with the same people for years, but recently I’ve really looked at them and realized that I hate ALL OF THEM. It’s very disconcerting. They’re all whiny, bitchy, and selfish. What scares me the most is that I was/am probably exactly like them.

I was never afraid of death until I became a mom… I often think about how I can never give my daughter the life she deserves. I’ve messed up everything in my life & am afraid I will do the same to her. I just want to die. I think about it alot, but at the same time I’m so scared to leave her. I just want to know that she will be ok and happy. It would be soo much easier if someone could just kill me. My daughter is the only good thing I’ve ever done and I just don’t want her to have the life I had. Read the rest of this entry »