My ex and i had been dating for a little over a year and our breakup ended in a dramatic fight. that was 7 months ago. We had many firsts together and got very emotionally attached to each other but ultimately things got worse. Those last 2 months were filled with fights and arguments; it was horrible. I’m dating another girl and we have been together for about 2 months. Shes a great girl and makes me really happy; i just feel like there’s this void in my chest. Like i lost something that cant ever be replaced. Something that a person can only get once in their lifetime.

My ex lived in another state. I don’t even comprehend how it worked for so long but we had something between us that i cant describe.. It was so special and i gave that up.
I still love her.

She moving into my state to go to college and she’d only be an hour away from me; before she was 6 1/2.
She hates me but still loves me dearly. I don’t know what to do I’m completely lost.

So far there are three girls that are scared of me. I am not that strange but they avoid me at all cost. I deserve an award or something because I bet it is a record.

I really want to be raped tell me why

I’ve been clean off heroin for a couple months now,
but every day I think about it, the way it made me feel, and the the low lives I had the pleasure of meeting on my mission to buy it. I wasn’t just addicted to the drug I was addicted to the life style, walking around north Philly at 4:30 am, hearing gun shots watching as the drug dealers dragged out the junkie that just OD in their living room, just wondering if next time is that gonna be me. It didn’t make thing easier that i had a partner in crime, the girl who first introduced me to the drug making sure no one robbed her,raped her,or what ever else came across their sick minds. and it felt like i was addicted to her.going to meet up wit her dealer and giving me a bag like it was me award for going with her. will I use heroin again I don’t know, hopefully not.