There was a man who was only one year older than me. He was married. I liked him. I’ve always despised people who advance on others who are taken. So I admired him from afar. I thought that would be okay.

Then he showed interest in me. He flirted. He held me. He kissed me. He said that he liked me. That he wanted to be with me. It was so difficult to push him away. To tell him no. To remind him that he has a wife. The more I was around him, the more I wanted to stay with him. So I stopped telling him no. We enjoyed each other. We spent much time together. We held each other in dark rooms, told each other secrets, and had no regrets. On the last night that we saw each other, we had sex. We made love until dawn. And then we parted ways. I shall never see him again. Read the rest of this entry »

I suppose this is just a way to release some built up stress. I’ve decided to just write out my thoughts to better understand myself, what it is I’m thinking.

Today I realized I am a hopeless romantic, unattractive and infinitely unappealing in the eyes of my women friends. Essentially, being used by said women, to be hooked up through my guy friends, who, themselves are what the vast majority of women consider attractive. I really have nothing to complain about though. It makes them all happy. Though, sometimes I wonder, why am I given the emotion of feeling like I’m supposed to care about these people, when in the end, I’m the one forgotten about, and pushed away? It’s almost as if I’m supposed to learn from the mistakes of caring about other human beings, and their happiness, and solely focus on pleasing what urges or desires I have instead…. Read the rest of this entry »

dont know why i decided to have these kinds of relationships
Message = i lost my virginity to an 18 year old when i was 11. when i was 12 i had sex a lot with a 25 year old… and i still miss him and have no idea why… had sex with a step cousin… and now in a relationship with an 18 year old and i am 14. Read the rest of this entry »

So I’ve been in a shit mood for probably a week now and it just WON’T go away. Had a fight with my bf this morning and he left pissed off- and I don’t even care. I’ll never be able to trust him because of what he’s done. He was HORRIBLE. And even though he’s trying to be a better person, I can’t believe him. I just don’t. Because of all the shit he pulled before. He used to hurt me. He doesn’t now because he got arrested for assaulting his ex girlfriend and her new man. He could be telling the truth about being faithful but something tells me not to trust. Even if he was, I wouldn’t put it past him to try and pull off little shit just for sport because I’ve suspected for a long time that he has or ‘had’ borderline personality disorder. He’s a real good actor and a bit of an attention whore. I don’t think he would turn down female attention. On top of that, he gets to keep in touch with ex-girlfriends and flips out about my having male friends- whom I can no longer be around without his accompaniment. Yet, he can still have contact with his exes. Read the rest of this entry »

I hate being married again. I dislike my step-kids with a passion. They are hyper, spoiled brats. My husband would rather spend money on shooting crap that is more expensive than buying me an actual bridal set. I feel like he hasn’t put any effort at all into us. I feel like now he has me and doesn’t have to do jack crap.Tired of it. He’s lazy and doesn’t discipline his kids, doesn’t help me around the house and expects me to do everything. At least my ex tried to help, at least he put some sort of effort into our marriage when he could. I’m sick and tried of my step-kids not listening to me, I want to rip there faces off, they piss me off when I get extremely angry. Sometimes I feel like I’d be better off alone.

My ex and i had been dating for a little over a year and our breakup ended in a dramatic fight. that was 7 months ago. We had many firsts together and got very emotionally attached to each other but ultimately things got worse. Those last 2 months were filled with fights and arguments; it was horrible. I’m dating another girl and we have been together for about 2 months. Shes a great girl and makes me really happy; i just feel like there’s this void in my chest. Like i lost something that cant ever be replaced. Something that a person can only get once in their lifetime.

My ex lived in another state. I don’t even comprehend how it worked for so long but we had something between us that i cant describe.. It was so special and i gave that up.
I still love her.

She moving into my state to go to college and she’d only be an hour away from me; before she was 6 1/2.
She hates me but still loves me dearly. I don’t know what to do I’m completely lost.

Am a 22 years old guy, married with no children for a year now.
I am related to my wife, when we got married it wasn’t based on a relationship, too fast and too wrong.
I was very lonely at that time and i believed that maybe doing the right thing could make a change. My wife loves me “i guess“ and i don’t i have been trying, its just not happening, never cheated on her i just find it something to be very ashamed from and a guilt to live with the rest of my life..wanted too just never did it!
I don’t wanna make this too long..i really need help here okay PLEASE!!

My question is: Do you think i should commit to my marriage which i know will make me miserable or divorce her knowing that she will never be with a man again and destroy my relationship with my mother..????

FYI i know its all my fault…

I hate my dad he is such a meanie his moods change from one second to second like a flickering flame why is he so mean why is so rude why can’t my dad be kind????? why is my life very difficult to live up to???

So I am in a high school play, I have been doing them since I was 5 years old. I love acting and I have made so many great friends because of it, but there is one who we have both liked each other on and off for a very long time although I have never did anything with him and probably never will. My bf of over a year now gets so jealous of ANY GUY even ones that i have been friends with longer than I have even known him. I am completely faithful and would never do anything to hurt him, but I really dont know what to do. Me and my bf fight all the time and the other guy is going into the army in a matter of weeks. In this play i have to pretend to be in love and do a very fast paced dance with him in it. Now here is where the awkward part begins. This guy i am getting very attracted to…Is this my fault and I should talk to my bf abou it or is it cause I am not getting the emotional satisfaction I need from my bf?

I love my husband’s brother in law. I’ve loved him for 20 years and it still goes on. And i can´t tell anyone that everyday I cry and think of him. I’m so sorry this happened.