So I’ve been in a shit mood for probably a week now and it just WON’T go away. Had a fight with my bf this morning and he left pissed off- and I don’t even care. I’ll never be able to trust him because of what he’s done. He was HORRIBLE. And even though he’s trying to be a better person, I can’t believe him. I just don’t. Because of all the shit he pulled before. He used to hurt me. He doesn’t now because he got arrested for assaulting his ex girlfriend and her new man. He could be telling the truth about being faithful but something tells me not to trust. Even if he was, I wouldn’t put it past him to try and pull off little shit just for sport because I’ve suspected for a long time that he has or ‘had’ borderline personality disorder. He’s a real good actor and a bit of an attention whore. I don’t think he would turn down female attention. On top of that, he gets to keep in touch with ex-girlfriends and flips out about my having male friends- whom I can no longer be around without his accompaniment. Yet, he can still have contact with his exes. Read the rest of this entry »

I didn’t know what it was, i thought it was a game.
Till i found out what sex was..
and then i found out what rape was.
And i will never
EVER
Get over it
But the only person i have told, in my whole life.
And ive been here 16 years.