My ex and i had been dating for a little over a year and our breakup ended in a dramatic fight. that was 7 months ago. We had many firsts together and got very emotionally attached to each other but ultimately things got worse. Those last 2 months were filled with fights and arguments; it was horrible. I’m dating another girl and we have been together for about 2 months. Shes a great girl and makes me really happy; i just feel like there’s this void in my chest. Like i lost something that cant ever be replaced. Something that a person can only get once in their lifetime.
My ex lived in another state. I don’t even comprehend how it worked for so long but we had something between us that i cant describe.. It was so special and i gave that up.
I still love her.
She moving into my state to go to college and she’d only be an hour away from me; before she was 6 1/2.
She hates me but still loves me dearly. I don’t know what to do I’m completely lost.